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20050729

im sad..
but i dun tink anyone noes
cos i dun show it

life is but a pack of lies
they change
we change
i change
but the reason why
i dunnoe...

i only noe i m depressed
yah tts all i noe...

20050728

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EILEEN!

wheee ponning school is jus so much fun!
thanks 2 my dental appt! mwhahas
amitabha pls let me take out!!!!!
but ltr still gt cca.. cos we wan 2 lian xi qing!
i feel like im on holiday..
wonder wad will happen 2 all my tests in wk6
i tink i sure die liao
my wkend is gonna say goodbye 2 me!! =(
hais.. well thursday is a holiday so well =)
lalalala
i m crappin
i dun even noe wad i m writing!!
oo n ya got chem presentation this afternoon
HAISS i mus present more
or els i will feel guilty
cos i din finish e report n ppt..
hais guilty guilty
ANYWAY.. i cut my hair haha
but it dun look cut...
wadeva hahahas

20050723

yayy
xiaozus this wk hav been fruitful!
cos very happy 2 c jinyao n portia improving
thou they still nt tt good yet
but i tink its nice improvement!
tryin 2 commuicate mre wif yls
yahh k la nt bad la
as long as i dun make any mistakes
hes still ok.. =)
got new pu
its xi qing
hav a feelin tt we r gg 2 play tt 4 new year nxt yr
dunnoe how it sound like lehh
but it looks short.. =P

lalala
wkend has been bombed AGAIN
thanks to STUDENT-INITIATED assignment..
siann... n got hw n other stuff
n PHEW nxt wk is sabbaticals
*relief*
wkend wkend wkend

20050717

FOA
now i shall blog about it hehe
ok actually we screwed up afternoon show..
but still hehe dun tink normal ppl noe la.. hahs
den after afternoon show
we went back 2 M4-01 n continued lianing la duh
den lian until halfway we ate + take photos + fool around
and sinyee jul elise n jinglin started 2 rite their letters
n of cos i blew my balloons
o n in the morning so screwed la..
i blew burst a balloon in Mac den tt lil girl was like *shocked*
geeez mus appreciate the balloons hor!! =)
blow until my cheeks wan 2 burst den i bcum bullfrog.. =.=ll
ok den arnd 6.30
snrs called us in to the storeroom
hahas den they started makin speeches about their presents hahs
well we were touched la.. but of cos we wun say anything right..
den its time to go dwn for briefing

n its time 2 start the evening show!
well in the dark is quite fun hahs
cos cant c anything den.. like blind le
jh mistook jinglin for xiaohong la! ahahahahs
but they 2 really quite similiar la
sit togethr in cls den influence each other 2geta too
n they r both lame so they need wheelchairs hahs
evening show totally rocks can
cos i tink the whole CO played their best!!
thou i screwed up some notes due 2 poor memory.. sry
den after the show alot ppl cry
den make me wan cry wan cry oso
but i v strong so i nvr cry =) hee
the jnrs rushed up to M4 immediately
so tt we can prepare the stuff for dem hahs
then we delivered speeches too!
hahs a bit lame horr well this is us so hehe
so we opened our letters n presents 2geta
but actually snrs de presents no need opening
cos we nvr wrap up hahs
u ask me wrap up i oso dunno so.. hehehe paiseh
snrs gave us bandanas n stars
den when they go out for the sec4s photo takin session
we were thinkin of how 2 wear the bandanas
so can giv dem surprises hahs
then they stay outside for so long!!
GRRRRR!!! =((
well den came the super A part la
stoopid juliana so ..... #.#
hais betta dun tok abt it....
it polluted our cameras.. hahas

to ALI: sorry!! din go n receive ur flower!! 4give me!! (pull ears)

yayy den afta the whole thing
we went KAP for supper!!!
ate ice creams n floats n apples n lime juices
snrs very snrs..
they ate all e healthy stuff..
geee.. feel so guilty!!!
den we discussed abt
wad we will do when they left (sobz)
n even toked abt NE quiz de tt game
lols..
ok tts all.. i gettin naggy liaoo
cyaaa

dizi ppl if u wan the photos msg me when u c me online
cos inside contained.. stuff
i tink u all noe wad i mean hahs

20050714

ALIVE once again!! =D
we found the common reason =)
n 2geta we found the solution!

20050709

muahahas
2day i discovered sth
i perform betta when im in foul mood
hahahahas lame hor
but its true
cos tts wad my mum says too
when i young
whenever i get angry
my mum says my handwriting will get much neater!!
hahas v funny hor
n 2day when i blow in foul mood
caina says i improved!! =)
abit funny hor den ltr i good mood liao
bcos of her comment!
den ltr i discovered tt all my breath disappear le
dots dots dots
i think i m an alien..
funny person on earth muahahas

o n i tink i gonna go broke soon
from buying presents!!
i owe...
yuqin, lifern, den, sinyee muahahas
i rock
bdaes 2 bee...
eileen, meisiew, elise
omgg sure broke
why suddenly july so many ppl bdae ahh
STRESS OF MONEYY bwahahas

o ya my bdae present
IF U WAN GIV
pls giv me CASH =)
each person 5 bucks + my savings
den i can go sim lim square n shop for my MP3 =D
or u buy me black bag or pencil case.. hehehe
wheeee imma money face = ($_$)!

20050707

i feel drained..
drained of all the essence in life..
cos its the sense of being neglected
last 9 days..
wake up duh!!
stop being emotional n crazy

but i really feel angryy
its so obvious but yet u cnt c
hahahas its u dumb or i dumb?
i dunnoe i really dunnoe

hw is crashin me dwn
i cnt seem 2 do anythin properly
n i m sick of collectin hw!!!!
i will nvr wan 2 b a rep again!

quarrelled wif my sis last nite
i was tryin 2 slp
she on the radio so loudly like shes deaf
n she nvr switch off the light 2 e table light
wad a inconsiderate person
i noe she has no need 2 wake up at 5.30
i noe she likes 2 sleep v late n den complain
but shes a pig hu takes naps!!!
i m not!! i nvr take naps
so i jus slammed the door n moved 2 e
living rm 2 slp
n i slept betta!! =)

im sick of ppl hu dun understand me
or try 2 put themselves in my shoes
i hate them
i m really v angry wif...
cos they failed 2 understand
n care...

20050702

im seriously in a bad mood
dun ask me why
i dunwan 2 noe it myself too
haven been in bad mood time for 2days
tts v bad
i really feel v sad

but come 2 realise
alot ppl evrytime wait until regret liao
den come n treasure
a bit no use hor
but well
nth is too latee hahas =.=ll
but i tink im late by 2yrs...

i tried 2 make my life happier
but end up makin it even more sad..
v shi bai ritee
i m so stoopid

no1 will ever trust me
cos i suck
studies sux lor
cca is total failure
com is oso shi bai
n not 2 say my family relationships now..
which is gettin worsee althou it looks
n "feels" better hahas
so fakeee!!!

i really need some1 to talk to
but looks like theres no1
whos willin 2 listen 2 me...
so i can only cry 2 myself at nite
in the bathroom
or jus when im alone at home
which is most of the time
im invisiblee hehe
in ur eyes
in ur heart

20050701

mood swinging dayy
from dizzy bcum moody
den from moody bcum nervous
n from nervous bcum sadness..
hahas

i dunwan 2 disappoint anyone...
but ended up disappointin more ppl..
hahs mebbe i shd not hav any hopes anymore
n then i wun disappoint anythin anymore ritee?

mebbe i will feel happier tt wayy
i dunwan 2 do big things
i dunwan 2 noe big things
cos i cnt even handle my small world
n the small being in myself..
hahs.. den how m i goin 2 handle big things?

i dunno..
i feel like a total failure
was lookin fwd 2 FOA ytd
was feelin so happy ytd
but its all gone
wazz left..
r memories
jus memories.....