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20071031

im feeling like a walking zombie now...
8 hours of sleep in 2days seriously not enough!
especially when the 2days consist of OP, work, class dinner etc etc
involves so much focus, brain work n etc etc!! arghh
eye ring growing around my eye.... i think i might just grow into a panda soon!!
i can jus sleep instantaneously when i board the bus n on my dad's car.
im just glad tt i didn't oversleep.. miraculously.. thank goodness!
so i have decided to finish all my cca stuff - drawing of drama camp tee, reading of scripts
by tonight.. i dun think im gg to sleep b4 1 now.. its like 11.15 now.?
dun care i MUST FINISH n enjoy my sleep tmr! muahahaha....
once again i regret running for the post of zuzhang... argh i suck...

20071023

this week was a horrible week to start with in the first place. with all the CCA stuff + PW, i almost thought i am going to die soon or something? i seriously cannot survive with 8hours of sleep in 2 days.. something is wrong with my body.. i feel so weak.... my flu + cough not really fully recovered yet. i think my flu got a lil better at least no more runny nose, but my cough got worse, at times, i almost couldn't speak at all.

i think things should get better after this week and after OP. and i guess i can really enjoy my holidays! still thinking whether i should quit MOS and go find a higher pay job... MOS pay is seriously damn low.. but i will need to go back to school for CCA for sure. job w higher pay n flexible timing.. really will have mah?

im glad tt i made use of my 2hours waiting for PW efficiently! i drew finish the designs for drama camp tee! whee!! please applause! haha. finished my parts for the xc proposal for hc08. will do OP script later and while waiting for my dad to finish using the com, i took a 2hr nap + i painted my toe nails heh. its like a glittery dark purple now. (: maybe will consider dark blue nxt time.

my zhong ji yi jia is ending tonight!! and its going to show in tw in ~40mins time.... hais been watching it ever since 8 August.. it accompanied through my mugging days, darkest days of this year too.. even though i quite bu shuang w the director for cutting away meng zhu de storylines....... >< but i hope they will show in some mu hou hua xu or sth?? *prays prays* hais future weekdays wont be nice anymore...

shall go chiong OP script now my zhong ji yi jia is in ~1hour time!

20071016

firstly, i wish jiayun a happy 17th birthday! hope u like the cake tt we bought for u
although i wasnt in the mood for a cake.. hahas...
got back math n econs today..
math to me was just a great disappointment...
i know i know my stuff but why will i score tt badly...
i expected a 60 aft lookin at the answers but still its quite hard for me 2 accept the truth..
a 61 for math n tt makes my math overall a C... wonderful....
econs was a 58... felt nth towards it since i wasnt aiming for anything
so 58 then 58 lorh.. not much diff to me... overall a C again..
chem was a 77 (overall too) my only reliable subject...
though i would much prefer it to be 8- but im alr satisfied w a 77.. (:
guess expectations do change how u feel towards ur grades...
well tmr shd b worst since im getting back bio n GP....
im so worried about i will fail GP.... i also dunno why i so worried..
expectations from my parents? or im just thinking too much??
i hate it whenever i hear my dad says tt he wants me to be a doctor/lawyer
i will always rebuke him cos being a doctor/lawyer
I KNOW thats DEFINITELY not i want...
and when my mum keeps talking about S paper.. (which is abolished alr)
but i think the so called S paper is like a H3...
she was gek tt my bro didnt get one.. so i guess shes pinning all hopes on me??

cca is becoming more of a burden then pleasure..
im really trying v hard 2 involve ppl in. but most imptly it still depends on themselves right?
i dun like 2 b a bad guy i hate e feeling... so pls dun leave me w no choice...
to me now.. i would rather do everything on my own.
instead of trying to communicate w the other zuzhang..
it feels DAMN awkward to talk to him ever after since geyao...
i cant accept the EXCUSE he gave for not turning up.
im sick of xc ppl with their endless commitments...
n how some ppl joining jus bcos they wan to slack
if u want many commitments then MAKE SURE u can manage well..
if not just give up some n manage the one WELL....
i wont mind if u chose to give up xc
theres NO POINT in having many n screwing all up
u will jus b a failure in the end.
if u join 2 slack.. then make sure u do SOME work BEFORE u slack
tts how xc works... we always finish the stuff beforehand.
then we can slack for a while before getting another job.
n to me this is how xc ppl slack. NOT the kind of not doing any work at all

if some random ppl ask me whether do i have a blog..
i would say yes but its dead OR a no..
i guess my blog is some privacy tt i deserve for the moment...
anw.. thanks xy n sy for lending me your shoulders..
really needed them today.. i also dunno why i so fragile today...
but well at least im ok now! went to eat prata together w all my troubles..
我想通了！so i wont fret over unnecessary stuff now.. hahas
shall take a nice bath n wish for a better tomorrow! (: (:

20071004

a month since i ever blogged!
shall talk about promos 1st..
its kinda fun to see how promos can change ppl..
seeing those so-called slackers mugging super hard can b amusing at times
well no1 can ever be 100% sure that they dun care abt grades..
at least i cant..
spent around 1 month mugging i guess
w xinyi, sylvia, shiying and sometimes yikai too hahas
as usual venue is MOS...
to the managers over there. thanks for allowing us to stay there
really appreciated!! (: and also big thanks to those tt gave me free food
will try 2 repay u all when i go back to work (:
GP: i guess im screwed. i am a weird kid, the subject ppl dun worry abt, i worry most
its not tt i can do anything abt it.. but still the worry is there.... hais. i only aim for a pass!!
Econs: hopefully its ok la.. i feel tt its ok.. so shd b ok la.. hahas
Chem: aiming for A! paper to me is easy la. so i hope i can get my A!!
pang mentioned tt almost half the cls got A.. so i hope im one of them!!
Math: first few qns were ok. it was only until the last few tt i got stumped.
so minus the marks of the last few qns n stupid careless mistakes..
i need a middle B to get a B overall... so hopefully can la..
Bio: i think im kinda screwed.. hais didnt manage to finish writing my stuff. and those tt i answered. totally got no confidence tt what i was writing are correct.. so yah.. prays hard

Post-promos
back to the torment of CCA and PW...
seriously, i hate the post promo schedule. its a PURE waste of time.
reports flooding me now... n i dun think i can communicate w e zuzhang anymore.
i think i would rather do evrything myself now than to be workin in a damn awkward situation.
shall wait until tmr de meeting... n see what happens.