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20090322

its dunno how long since results release.. hmm now i kinda feel amazing about how fast time passes.. i think these few days have been quite fulfilling! submitted my uni applications for NTU and NUS.. going for NTU accountancy interview on tuesday.. though i can expect what kind of questions they will be asking me, but i think i will still feel damn nervous... >< anw thursday met up with 10+ huangcheng ppl for dinner.. then friday(yesterday) met up with 10+ huangcheng ppl again for dinner! LOL! after dinner on friday, me huiying hongwei jinhao jeffrey and minzhe went for overnight K until 530 am.. oo and i am supposed to report work at 930/900! hahaha! so many ppl said i was crazy.. i think so too! but i dun care la cos i want to K!! overnight K is so exciting hahahahaha! as a consequence i was like a half-corpse during work today geez.. i could fall asleep when typing.. ahh!
oo and i just realised this entry is nothing but rattling.. HAHA! no content LOL.

20090307

results release. i made a promise to myself that i would only be emo for today and ONLY today. not that my results are very bad or anything, but its not very good too.. its just average, very average.. and maybe a little disappointing. i was glad that i did not make any expectations before i went to get the results if not i would only be more disappointed. i really almost cried, but i couldn't find the reason to do so. i was just again feeling nothing.. actually 3As and 2Cs is really not bad, but because its in HWACHONG and obviously you will feel sad when you see people around getting 4As 5As.. and i really felt depressed about supposedly being one of the "smarter" ones in class then suddenly became one of the worst in class.. thats why i hate it when people say im smart/clever/intelligent or whatever shit, its just giving me false hope and confidence which will just bring disappointment in the end...
i think the worst was when the feelings of disappointment were fading away, i called my mum to tell her my results.. and what she said was 完蛋了，死了。 haha! yah yah 3As 2Cs and your future is gone.. what an encouraging mother! lucky my dad replied GOOD when i smsed him, if not i think i will really 爆 in school..
after i got my results, i went to pay for the huangcheng ticket and met many huangcheng people. im proud of the huangcheng people and of cos other friends who got 7/8 distinctions! and im really glad that you all were around to take my thoughts away and provide some listening ears for me to complain/grumble. thanks (:
oo and tonight is dunno how long since i ever see so many stars... how nice.. just nice for me to emo my night away. but then i wont break the promise to myself. i shouldn't and i will not.

20090305

today is the eve of results release.. and amazingly, im feeling nothing! not nervous, not worried, nothing. im trying very hard to have no expectations but i want my results to be good enough to get into the course i want. thats all.. hahas. as for scholarships, shall think about them tomorrow. and i guess the only reason i will look forward to tmr is cos i get to see many friends that i didnt see for like 2,3 months! ahh so long.... and after tomorrow.. life will be different too...

surprisingly, time is passing faster with work nowadays.. not because of work itself but because of the people.. the nurses there are really nice, they will share with you so many interesting stories and their life experience. still, i think the workplace would be happier if there aint so many rules/regulations/restrictions and w/o a bossy supervisor. the only time i will like work would be during weekends, though i really hate the idea of working on weekends. cos weekends very busy, then will have many things to do, and i like the feeling of everyone working together trying to clear the crowd etc (:

im at a loss of words now hahahaha. shall go 发花痴 or something and hopefully i wont have troubles falling asleep!