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20071016

firstly, i wish jiayun a happy 17th birthday! hope u like the cake tt we bought for u
although i wasnt in the mood for a cake.. hahas...
got back math n econs today..
math to me was just a great disappointment...
i know i know my stuff but why will i score tt badly...
i expected a 60 aft lookin at the answers but still its quite hard for me 2 accept the truth..
a 61 for math n tt makes my math overall a C... wonderful....
econs was a 58... felt nth towards it since i wasnt aiming for anything
so 58 then 58 lorh.. not much diff to me... overall a C again..
chem was a 77 (overall too) my only reliable subject...
though i would much prefer it to be 8- but im alr satisfied w a 77.. (:
guess expectations do change how u feel towards ur grades...
well tmr shd b worst since im getting back bio n GP....
im so worried about i will fail GP.... i also dunno why i so worried..
expectations from my parents? or im just thinking too much??
i hate it whenever i hear my dad says tt he wants me to be a doctor/lawyer
i will always rebuke him cos being a doctor/lawyer
I KNOW thats DEFINITELY not i want...
and when my mum keeps talking about S paper.. (which is abolished alr)
but i think the so called S paper is like a H3...
she was gek tt my bro didnt get one.. so i guess shes pinning all hopes on me??

cca is becoming more of a burden then pleasure..
im really trying v hard 2 involve ppl in. but most imptly it still depends on themselves right?
i dun like 2 b a bad guy i hate e feeling... so pls dun leave me w no choice...
to me now.. i would rather do everything on my own.
instead of trying to communicate w the other zuzhang..
it feels DAMN awkward to talk to him ever after since geyao...
i cant accept the EXCUSE he gave for not turning up.
im sick of xc ppl with their endless commitments...
n how some ppl joining jus bcos they wan to slack
if u want many commitments then MAKE SURE u can manage well..
if not just give up some n manage the one WELL....
i wont mind if u chose to give up xc
theres NO POINT in having many n screwing all up
u will jus b a failure in the end.
if u join 2 slack.. then make sure u do SOME work BEFORE u slack
tts how xc works... we always finish the stuff beforehand.
then we can slack for a while before getting another job.
n to me this is how xc ppl slack. NOT the kind of not doing any work at all

if some random ppl ask me whether do i have a blog..
i would say yes but its dead OR a no..
i guess my blog is some privacy tt i deserve for the moment...
anw.. thanks xy n sy for lending me your shoulders..
really needed them today.. i also dunno why i so fragile today...
but well at least im ok now! went to eat prata together w all my troubles..
我想通了！so i wont fret over unnecessary stuff now.. hahas
shall take a nice bath n wish for a better tomorrow! (: (: