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20090307

results release. i made a promise to myself that i would only be emo for today and ONLY today. not that my results are very bad or anything, but its not very good too.. its just average, very average.. and maybe a little disappointing. i was glad that i did not make any expectations before i went to get the results if not i would only be more disappointed. i really almost cried, but i couldn't find the reason to do so. i was just again feeling nothing.. actually 3As and 2Cs is really not bad, but because its in HWACHONG and obviously you will feel sad when you see people around getting 4As 5As.. and i really felt depressed about supposedly being one of the "smarter" ones in class then suddenly became one of the worst in class.. thats why i hate it when people say im smart/clever/intelligent or whatever shit, its just giving me false hope and confidence which will just bring disappointment in the end...
i think the worst was when the feelings of disappointment were fading away, i called my mum to tell her my results.. and what she said was 完蛋了，死了。 haha! yah yah 3As 2Cs and your future is gone.. what an encouraging mother! lucky my dad replied GOOD when i smsed him, if not i think i will really 爆 in school..
after i got my results, i went to pay for the huangcheng ticket and met many huangcheng people. im proud of the huangcheng people and of cos other friends who got 7/8 distinctions! and im really glad that you all were around to take my thoughts away and provide some listening ears for me to complain/grumble. thanks (:
oo and tonight is dunno how long since i ever see so many stars... how nice.. just nice for me to emo my night away. but then i wont break the promise to myself. i shouldn't and i will not.