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20090921

geez, i just realised its just nice more than a month ever since i blogged. its been so long until i forgot some of the stuff that had happened for the past month. and im offically 19 now!! (:
School.
the class is obviously classified into two groups now (just for the girls only), the only few guys in the class are always sticking together so not considered. this is kinda expected la. lucky huiqing and i still car pool together, if not i think both of us will be quite distant too. >< and my group convo is always a convo of shooting arrows at cassandra. she is just so nice to laugh at dunno why leh. her boyfriend, her uber ignorance and stuff. reminds me of ewe hahah! i am the shooter, tianzhu is my supplier and huiping is the loyal audience in charge of applausing! ^^ i miss jessica!!! i really dunno whats wrong with her cos she is not telling us.. and i dunno how to ask also.. :( aye so sad i cant help her with anything.. >< i hope the news about her withdrawing from modules or even the semester are NOT TRUE! she is my first uni friend and i think without her i wont be able to interact that well with other people too... jessica jiayou jiayou!! although i dunno what happened to you over that weekend, but ya im sure you will be fine! (:
school work as usual still the same, just that with additional projects. i am still escaping from my term paper.. the only thing i did was to download the relevant articles from the E-resources. AHH i feel so nua.. but afterall its RECESS week. ahh cannot cannot, tmr die die also must start on term paper already!! its a <10 page report afterall.. orz. but at least i finished three tutorials! haha! so proud of myself hoho. and finished my OCIP carwash poster design and sent for approval with the help of the NVAC publicity in-charge. ^^ ok la, my weekend is still PRODUCTIVE!

MAF
went for MAF on saturday. then in the afternoon, went out with yifang, alvina and jiamin to have lunch/dinner. lol. jiamin so long time never see her already. then the three of us really have a lot of "nice" things to tell her la! hahaha! then jiamin was "forced" to go to MAF under the threat of "help jiamin find a man" facebook group. LOL. was with them for a while, talked to miss wong then i went to huisuo already. haha. hais dunno why, but i kinda felt different mixing with the huangcheng ppl now.. is it me who has changed or am i just thinking too much?? i think should be i think too much hahaha. and going back for MAF just brings me back to last year's MAF where we were all playing mahjong when econs prelims was just 2days away. hahahaa! that one is a very classic memory bah. and it kinda felt like it happened just yesterday.. now alot of things so different, guys as usual still talking about NUS, the girls will of course talk about school, but different schools = different convos already. i guess its the missing common element between all the huangcheng people that makes things feel diff bah... hais that sounds damn saddening... and thinking of it, the only memories i have of HCI is just huangcheng. and plus a few good friends in 07s77. LOL. i really am a 黃城人。><

and i think recently i have been feeling very weird which i dont like. the emo feeling is getting back to me for a reason i dunno why. there is just too many thoughts jumbled up within my brain that i cant sort out. and there are too many things that i SHOULD/WANT do, but CANT do.. maybe its the sudden feeling that im so useless thats making me emo. and i dunno why university people like to make things so complicated or is it that i like to do things the easy way. ahh this is so confusing. then as usual, as i keep thinking n thinking, past memories just flooded me, further tangling all the jumbled thoughts. then when i realised i need someone to listen to me, i dunno who to find. and somehow i just feel that its just very weird to tell people about certain stuff and end up i think i will just feel damn embarrassed or awkward.. cos my family people also keep things to themselves one. but well at least when the thoughts start getting jumbled up, my brain started getting lazy and just suddenly, i will forget why am i thinking about all the stupid stuff again. hahahaha! but just that dunno when those stuff will come back to me again..