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20100915

2 months since i last blogged. record breaking again. lol.
work has ended! so happy i got out of that place. dont have good impression of the working systems there as well as all the stupid targets they have to hit. sales will never be a thing for me, i guess. yupps, so we wrote a card for romeo to thank him for all he have done for us this two months. then yifang, celina and me bought a separate thing for him, cos he was especially nice to the 3 of us. hahahaha. on the last day of work, the 3 of us met bryan for dinner, celina and me being the matchmakers, so we just sit there quiet quiet and let the main leads talk wahahaha. but well, our matchmaking succeeded! LOL. during the dinner, bryan told us something damn shocking about romeo too, he said romeo was divorced and had children! but he actually lost the custody of his children. then the 3 of us were totally stunned to the max. and from then on, our impression of him took a 180 degrees twist. yifang was totally scared of romeo. LOL.

then before school reopens, tried to meet up with many many people cos scared no time during the semester itself. sad. haha, which is quite true.

and the best thing that happened before school starts was that i managed to change my timetable! if not i will be stuck with someone i dislike, yucks. i rather be ALONE, not knowing anyone at all, than to be with people whom i dislike or "you-know-me, i-know-you" kind. yeps, so lucky i have jean and apple with me now. if not my current semester would be in a more pathetic state than it is now. ><

and the best thing that happened after school reopens would be to go HONGKONG! yongxin and i are the crazy people who will actually plan overseas trip during school term. lol. although the whole company of 7ppl (including myself), i only know yongxin, but i still had fun! cos yongxin's cousins are a fun bunch of people! envy her for getting such nice cousins.. my cousins are totally whatever. lalala, but hongkong was v good for shopping during the sale season. its 50% everywhere, as compared to the stingy 5-10% in singapore. ><

i turned 20 already! birthdays apparently are getting less exciting, but still something to look forward to every year. not for the presents, but for the excuse/reason to meet up with friends. and of course to feel loved. hahahaha! was super busy during that whole week cos so many people asking me out. yippee, not me asking people out. i feel damn unmotivated to organize outings etc already, cos im super sick of the feeling of being pangseh. anyway, i feel very sian cos i received presents that i confirm wont use one. and i thought people who know me should know that, but apparently they dont. so i just felt that they were very 敷衍. in this case, i actually prefer they just dont buy me anything, than to let me think they totally dont know me at all. but anyway, i gave them to tianzhu who will utilize them very well for me! heehee. better than leave them in the house to collect dust. ^^

yupps, so now is one month plus since school reopens. so far, i have been feeling quite stupid with almost all my modules. i dunno where my brain went. i probably left it in HK. sighs. and the thought of stupidity really hit me quite hard when i got pawned by the finance quiz. just felt damn irritated that i didnt know how to do it at that point of time. cos after that, i went to think about the questions and realize i should know how to do! *pissed* with myself. somehow, i think that setting the 4.0 cap for myself is very stressful for me now. it kinda created too much expectations from me on myself. but if dun have 4.0, then no second upper. >< and this is like the first time im actually feeling stressed in ?? years, even more than A levels, cos its like the LAST lap of study. and damn it, i hate that feeling. its so not myself. now im feeling that im studying like a machine more like a human. forcing myself to be disciplined etc. sighs. i need to make myself love the modules this semester more. BUT TAXATION IS SERIOUSLY TOO DRY!! argh. shall see how it goes.. hopefully my brain (or heart) will come back soon from dunno where. I NEED MORE MOTIVATION!!!

im also a bit regretful that i went to run for NVAC treasurer. didnt really regret that much one until i saw the current president. sighs. he just gives me the feeling that he is not v zai. and his instructions not very clear. i very gek that he actually forgot to confirm with me that there was a meeting on monday until that very day itself. and i knew about it, not because of his confirmation, but cos i met the ex vice-president who told me about it. sighs. shall see how. i cannot work under presidents who are not zai. if not i will just become quite rebellious. shit. shall not judge him so soon. see how when the workload comes in.....

in conclusion, school has not been good so far.... >< there is not even one module that i am confident of.... im so dead.. cap 4.0 how.......