不想一路走來珍惜的回憶沒有你

20110601

for bottling up is too much a pain for me to take
and i cant cry without people telling me dont cry or teasing me for being emo

i am sad for knowing too much things not for my own sake but for others
then it became an insult to be "smart" when others are getting better grades than me

its sad because i dunno if i should open up this blog to let people know the darker side of me
i am afraid to be judged, as much as i want to be cool and just heck about what people think of me

dont tell me you are feeling alone, because i have been feeling alone for a lot of things without telling people
and maybe thats why i dunno how to ask for help now

the saddest thing is i dunno why i am thinking of so much stuff now when i desperately need to rest